"the soul takes flight, to the world that is eternal, and there arriving, she is sure of bliss, and forever lives in paradise" - plato
thank you for the sweet comments and emails my friends, nancy passed away peacefully this morning. she was ready to go and we are relieved that she will be in no more pain. hug your loved ones, forgive with an open heart and make each and everyday count.
xoxo
golden gate park : march 2010
a few days ago our family received the news that my husbands step-mother, our children's nana, who has been battling cancer over the last five years,will be leaving us soon. too, too soon. there's nothing more that can be done for her, nothing more that the doctors can do.
i think the word terminal sucks!
i haven't written about my step-mother in law very much over the last five years as i always wanted to protect her and not turn her fight with cancer into blog fodder. in reality i think i never quite knew exactly what to write.
i have a knack for hiding my deepest pain with really high walls, filling my time with really stupid things and responding to friends {who i know are there for reasons just like this} with really shallow words of "i'm fine... we're fine".
however, over the last few days as the pain and heart-ache of losing nancy has been sinking in i am just feeling lost. lost & mad.
i'm also feeling guilty. i should have done more. i should have been there for her more. i should have called more. sent more pictures of the littles, drawings, updates, notes. we should have gotten on a damn plane and visited more.
i keep hearing how i need to focus on the good, on all of the beautiful memories and the time that we do have with her right now, but today, today i feel like we're being cheated. the littles are going to lose a grandmother that they adore, their nana, and i am going to lose a wonderful friend.
life hurts so much sometimes.
i've been going through the family archives printing some pictures to scrap and i keep coming across pictures of the littles that are making my heart ache a bit. well. making it ache alot. i'm sure it all has to do with the fact that the little man starts kinder on tuesday. my baby.
when everyone told me to cherish each day because it would go by with a blink of my eye i half heartedly used to nod my head and say i know. but it has. it has gone by too quickly.
happy saturday.
xo
One of the things I love about Jenni's kits & of course, joining the design team, is all of the little extra vintage bits and bobs. I also love how there's always a gallery update on the 10th, so there's extra inspiration for all of you subscribers.
I've got three additional gallery items loaded up today as well as the mini cupcake stands {above} that I made out of the August project kit and some additional vintage items I had in my stash {see pic above}.
Head on over and check it all out & then go cut some paper, k?
happy wednesday!
xo
i realized yesterday that i forgot to show the other four layouts that i created for the hambly studios summer 2010 cha booth. this layout is of the picture we took at my grandmothers girls tea we had back in february. it features the new hambly pen + ink overlay, sweet tooth {apothecary} rubons, doily stickers and stitches rubons.
my sweet baby boy when he came home from the hospital in 2004. this layout features the chicken coop overlay + high tea on vellum {so beautiful!!} + tea party paper {blue}
a random birthday layout featuring the sweet tooth papers {apothecary jars} + high tea on vellum + sweet tooth rubons {apothecary jars} + pen & ink overlays.
my bean loves littlest pet shops, obsessively loves! she took this pic of her pony after she added a paper horn {lol} and i just had to document the obsession. this one features the new garden party paper {which is my fav of the releases!} + high tea on vellum + the new wood-grain alpha stickers.
happy tuesday!
xo
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